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I’m pretty sure that starting over can be one of the best things for your soul and your outlook, even if it’s just starting a new blog. I wanted a fresh start to be authentic to myself, to write about the things that are important to me and pertinent to my life.

I went through a brief depressive episode early this year. I usually hit a down spot in the winter every year, but this one felt different. The sadness was deeper somehow. A lot had to do with being unhappy with my situation and distressed about the state of the world (and I wasn’t alone), and I began to emotionally beat myself up on a fairly constant basis. I wasn’t thin enough or successful enough or wealthy enough or loved enough or emotionally stable enough… And so on. Every disappointment, every internal question became a doubt about myself, and that snowballed until I overwhelmingly immersed in my depression.

And then I got over it. One break up and a medication adjustment later, I found myself pulling myself up by my bootstraps (for like the thirtieth time in my life) and realizing that this internal voice that kept telling me I wasn’t whatever enough was a total asshole. Not to mention a liar. I’m just fine. The only problem with me — besides a severe chemical imbalance — was that I was listening to this inner asshole that kept trying to sabotage me. It’s not that that voice isn’t still there — I’ve just learned to shut her up.

I’m planning to write about all of that more on this blog, as well as my journey with body positivity. Not to mention my usual outfit posts, makeup hauls, home decor endeavors, etc. I might even get political. Oh, and one of the things I’ve started doing again is graphic and web design, so probably that, too! (If you’re viewing the desktop version of this site, I hand-coded this entire thing, and I’m pretty damn proud, to be honest.)

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    • Today was pretty awesome. ❤️ @buzzcocked •••
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    • I don’t have super any recent pics, so here’s a drunken selfie of me from a few weeks ago to go along with this absolutely irrelevant chain of text. I’ve also turned off comments because I don’t want pity or sympathy or advice. I just want to purge my feelings. I haven’t posted much in awhile because I’m not happy. I haven’t liked myself in awhile, and January and February have never been good months for me. I’ve been really self-critical and sad and isolating myself from the world when I’m not working. I know logically that this depressive period will end, but that doesn’t mean it hurts less or doesn’t feel unending. I’ll probably feel ashamed by tomorrow and delete this post, but don’t forget your “gone” friends. They may be hiding from the gray skies right now, but they will bloom again when the sun returns.
    • Work party last night! And snow! ❤️❄️ I hate that I didn’t pics of everyone.
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    • Channeling Wednesday Addams and, yes, I cleaned my mirror after taking these.
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    • 2009 vs now. Me then: “I won’t be happy until I’m skinny!” Naw, girl, you won’t be happy until you quit accepting shitty behavior in relationships, get your meds straight, go to therapy, and focus on yourself. I may have gained weight and gone through some real shit, but things are so much better now.
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    • 2018 was my “get shit done” year. I’ve focused on my career, my home, and doing things I’ve needed to do for years. I’ve gone back to therapy, took a year off from dating, and have tried to stay on top of my health, both mentally and physically. I hope that 2019 will continue in this vein, and be the year I worked towards finding my own happiness. I finally feel like I deserve that.
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    • Meowy Christmas!! 🎄🐱
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    • Top 9. Thanks for all the likes, comments, and generally putting up with my nonsense.
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    • Festive af last night. Second picture was, uh, several drinks in at a Christmas party.
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    • My coworker said I looked like a rich bitch after I put on my coat, but my outfit is totally Target except for my boots. But if you pronounce it “Tar-jay,” we can pretend I paid hundreds of dollars for this look.
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    • My first Christmas in my apartment (2016) vs this year. Still don’t think I have enough decorations though.
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    • Possibly professional.
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